tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-55632222011-04-21T16:37:12.652-05:00Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.comBlogger901100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-76093349094949009252007-12-17T12:11:00.000-05:002007-12-17T12:13:58.439-05:00

SALT ALL THE FUCKING WALKWAYS!!!ESPECIALLY STEPS!!!!!!!!I swear, ditch the blue treatment salt and just grab the massive amounts of table salt from the Chartwells cafes if you have to.

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Need to post this so that I can access it easier anywhere.Fates of Abandoned QuarriesWhat is the fate of a rock quarry? A quarry is a type of shallow open pit mining used in extracting some minerals and dimension stone such as granite, limestone, and gypsum to name a few. Like most mines, quarries are eventually abandoned, leaving landscapes pockmarked with quarry holes. What happens to a quarry

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-84158909948182273482007-11-08T17:40:00.000-05:002007-11-08T18:24:18.872-05:00

Today is a very dreary day. I've felt extremely tired all day. I attributed it to the weather, but now I see we haven't had much of a drop in pressure or anything. It did smell like it does when it snows today, though.Today I had a very nice conversation with my botany professor, Dr. Johnson. It started with mushrooms (due to a beautiful Pearl Oyster Mushroom in the classroom today) and my

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Been too busy to post, though I get to think about a lot.Right now I am too brain-fried from trying to absorb the 300 pages of information I tried to cram before my Human Ecology midterm tomorrow. So stupid, why am I not on top of anything this semester?Somehow I read and I read and I read and I learn things- I learn a lot of thingsBut I feel like I'm reading the same things over and over and

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-43944725794741963692007-10-03T00:27:00.000-05:002007-10-03T00:28:17.001-05:00

"Do you ever feel like… unrooted.When you think back to all the friends you used to have, or when you think to several years ago, and notice everything has changed. Everything. It was years ago, but it felt like it could have been yesterday. And you don’t know where people are or what you did with things or what happened between then and now. Then your head is spinning and the people in front of

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I had a post, one that i deleted. I was venting at a time when things weren't moving, couldn't move because of bureaucracy and paperwork and waiting periods. I kind of blamed it on Mishal, hinted at horrible things I shouldn't have hinted at. I wanted to talk, the thought of leaving didn't cross my mind.I was pretty upset, and understandably. I mean, it's hard to go from talking everyday to less

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1148357658975697192006-05-22T22:52:00.000-05:002006-05-22T23:14:19.046-05:00

What I think about, I never write about. Every day I dictate to myself and never write it down. Everything is too wispy. It's like trying to catch a breeze in a bottle. You have the tools, the bottle or the words but the very action of trying to catch the breeze kills it, it cuts it from the mother thread. Everything disappears when I try to write.I'll need to refine a better bottle, but I don't

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I want to blog more, and write down what I'm thinking. But you know it's so hard to take the energy to slow the mind down, sit down, organize thoughts into words stringing sentences trying to describe elusive and fluid ideas.Even so, I'm all too aware of my tunnel-vision. I've been walking on this campus for 9 months, and I'm surprised to notice that I haven't seen the tops of the trees in all of

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1146456431368780512006-04-30T14:12:00.000-05:002006-04-30T23:11:28.436-05:00

Documentary:An Inconvenient Truth HBO Documentary: Too Hot Not to HandleWebsites & Organizations:StopGlobalWarming.orgNativeEnergyTreeHugger.comBooks:"Field Notes from a Catastrophe" Elizabeth KolbertFunny:Triumph: "Earth to America".. still working on this.

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http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-8260059923762628848&q=loose+change&pl=trueI will write on this later, but right now I'm researching environmental stuff.

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Well, my anxiety has been cleared for a while. Mishal finally showed up for one day and we were able to talk for two or so hours. It felt really good. I just hope that this wasn't a one-time occurance. I don't want to get worked up like that again.I'm kind of exhausted, though I'm not doing that badly. I have to get another reference and do this resume and "statement of interest and goals" done

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1145921908829967092006-04-24T17:06:00.000-05:002006-04-24T18:38:28.896-05:00

I haven't been posting. I should. Especially when my anxiety is at its highest. I need a vent, any vent. It's just that when I have problems, I want to ignore them and not write them down. Even my best thoughts stay in my head. Any words chosen in writing limit them so much.I'm not a very good painter and I'm not a very good writer when it comes to making that image which frames an entire world

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1144372653031562352006-04-06T19:24:00.000-05:002006-04-06T20:17:33.090-05:00

I need to take a break from wasting my life, so I need to write again. There are so many things I said I would do, and then never finished.I just finished from a relatively busy period of studying. At the moment I have one assignment due at 2pm tomorrow, but that's all I have to prepare for in the near future.One thing that I'm still trying to figure out how to do: wasting my time while staying

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Haven't blogged in a long time.. haven't checked any.I'm having alot of anxiety problems lately. But I'm too busy to take care of it. I've had exams and homework and papers and all sorts of shit. I had some good times in there too, though.. like Mishal and I's anniversary on Thursday.But several times a week I'm having dreams with anger. I think all my anxiety is being culminated and expressed in

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1141150614232963032006-02-28T12:29:00.000-05:002006-02-28T13:37:35.180-05:00

So I've been thinking... about Marijuana.So, follow the link and watch the video. I think that is a good summary.Everyone wants to get on their high rock and say "oh, it kills you!"then "Oh, it's bad for you!"Well, I don't think that it's unhealthy. Certainly not as unhealthy as inhaling tar and carcinogens to get your nicotine or drinking until you need your stomach pumped. Believe me, I'm in

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1139518972338938482006-02-09T15:48:00.000-05:002006-02-09T16:02:52.390-05:00

I have had this one feeling and idea inside me for the longest time. I remember I first noticed it after the school year began last year, which just happened to be my senior year of high school. This budding idea was the importance of love as motivation for action and change.But I feel I was a little late realizing it.I still haven't.And it was very difficult for me, given my lifestyle throughout

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1139116030256155892006-02-04T23:47:00.000-05:002006-02-05T00:07:10.270-05:00

I don't know how I feel right now. I guess I just had one of those magic moments. It wasnt happy, or sad, but it was just... powerful.Evie and I are both tired and sitting at our desk.. on the computer. Evie is talking to her friend online, and i'm lightly reading and taking notes for my religion class. I have music playing lightly and Coldplay's "Don't Panic" plays. The only words said are 'I

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1138832571194857832006-02-01T17:17:00.000-05:002006-02-01T17:22:51.203-05:00

`Make French Vocab cards.`Take French notes.`Make Arabic Vocab cards.`Last week and this weeks' Religions readings.`Last week and this weeks' Zoology readings.Friday:-Zoology Literature Assignment due.-Pick two cited references from the last Botany Research reading to read. Discuss in lab meeting.-French Translations and 20 questions due.Monday:7pm Religion review session.Tuesday:8am Hinduism

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So, on a secondary thought. Things to do/ write about:-A little elaboration on the past few vague posts. and rejection of Existentialism (That is a bit deep and personal.. it will be hard to write about).-Hosting the Propsi.-Change of atmosphere. I don't go out anymore, *sigh*.*Check out the College Democrats meeting tonight. 9pm Stuy Smoker.*Smoking the Hookha with Kiena (and maybe

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After a tiring walk back to my room from my 11-12 class, I turn on the computer to check my mail and begin my zoology literature research assignment.I am so confused. I have a comment posted on my blog?Who wants to read this incomplete, sometimes whiny and self-pitying blog?I mean, seriously it gets sometimes more personal and whiny /a way of emotional release than any real notepad of

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1138411892363865422006-01-27T19:05:00.000-05:002006-01-27T20:31:32.430-05:00

When I purchased guilt by sinning, I was looking for certainty that at heart things were pure.How stupid was I not to think of what else came . It's not only he who would evaluate my actions. There are still others who would never forgive me. Important others.I'm stigma'ed, devalued. Not only on my own judgement of myself.How can I, alone, provide everything I hope to now?

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I finally have my final schedule arranged. It's such a bitch...M W FAnimal and their Environment 11:00 - 11:50F: Plant Signal Transduction Lab 12:00 - 2:00French Grammar 2:10 - 3:00T RReligions of the East 8:00 - 9:50T: Plant Signal Transduction Lab 10:00 - 12:00R: Zoology Lab 1:10 - 4:00Intermediate Arabic 4:10 - 5:30 pm

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I read this morning that Canada's newly elected conservative president plans to revisit the issue of Gay Marriage, which Canada had legalized.For one,I don't understand this surgence of conservatism, fundamentalism, ect that is happening all over the world. What causes a nation to go from liberal to conservative? I'm not sure what happened in 2000, but lately the conservatives have been rallying

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1138041218017496272006-01-23T13:33:00.000-05:002006-01-23T13:33:38.030-05:00

It's too dangerous... I can't go now.

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I have a few posts to make on different subjects, but I don't have much time to do it. So.. I'll list them before I forget, I suppose.A few Recurring dreams.Plant Signal Transduction.Current Events.

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Don't forget this shite, Natalie...1. GO TO CLASS AT 8:00. Get your damn blue slip signed.2. Cell Biology Placement exam at 12:00 in CWSC 325.Breakfast with Ben at 8:00 Friday.Arabic is meeting next monday.Plant Signal Transduction is meeting next monday.

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good morning sunshine awake when the sun hits the sky look up the sounds that surround the day you died she waits for me outside near a hole in the ground in the one way thinking you might get the upper hand dear newo ikkin how's apollo been treating you? has he been a good boy since the day i left? give him my love and a sweet kiss for his head cause i won't be coming home, when you get this

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well tentative...M W F11:00 - 11:50 ZOOL115, Animals and their Environment2:10 - 3:00 FREN225, Intensive French Grammar ReviewM: Arranged, Plant Signal TransductionM: Night- Intermediate ArabicT R8:00 - 9:50 REL104, Religions of the EastR: 1:10 - 4:00 ZOOL Lab, Zoology lab

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1137425170478943902006-01-16T10:17:00.000-05:002006-01-16T10:26:10.510-05:00

In a way, I am still living the dreams I had as a child. A few of them, anyway. I had a lot of dreams. I came to Ohio Wesleyan talking all about genetics and lab work. But since then my passion for anthropology and sociology and languages has been reawakened. I think that is where I may want to go.Is there anybody else who still has the same passions they had as a child? Or does everybody grow

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1136933836283430792006-01-10T17:50:00.000-05:002006-01-10T17:57:16.300-05:00

Does anybody really have an idea?Sacrifice freedom for security,Sacrifice control for security,Sacrifice justice for security.I can't hold an argument because as soon as I cite a story, anything, the other side waves it off, "It's the media controlled by Liberals who are still upset over losing the 2000 election."That's the vantage point of the people in power: Anything that disagrees with your

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1136858959798133462006-01-09T21:04:00.000-05:002006-01-09T21:09:19.810-05:00

1. Research the library on KSA / Jeddah2. Research news databanks on new King and social development3. Get Maps of Jeddah... mark checkpoints at Tahlia St.4. research checkpoints

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1136752343326883602006-01-08T15:23:00.000-05:002006-01-08T15:32:23.336-05:00

1. Write the Embassy in Saudi Arabia about a visa and background check on Mishal and Camilia.2. Clean room since father demands it.3. Write Kshiti.4. Call Kiena about hooka smoking and seeing Memiors of a Geisha.(I'm still sick, I shouldn't be smoking...)5. Call Freddy.6. Get Camilia's contact information.When out:1. Shop for books on Saudi Arabia/ Jeddah and customs.2. Look for Asian Dub

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1136521483729844962006-01-05T22:52:00.000-05:002006-01-05T23:24:43.796-05:00

I have never felt further away from him.. than I have in the past few days.. I learned that I can't get a visa and getting his will be difficult and also take forever..reading "we will meet, someday" absolutely broke my heart. I had hoped.. counted so much... on feeling like this was close.. It got me through some of the worst times..I shouldn't complain now, I shouldn't be so depressed.I'll go

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1134723818803471242005-12-16T04:01:00.000-05:002005-12-16T04:04:39.320-05:00

My roommate, Evie, and I are talking in Instant Messenger while our other roommates are sleeping.Evie covers her mouth and suddenly has a terrified look on her face.Dragonfly3590: I just scared my self with the first track!!FujiroMitsukai: LOLDragonfly3590: Yeah dude, it was kinda really LOUD and BIG and just came out of NOWHERE!!!FujiroMitsukai: You are never going to live this down.

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1133468502863539382005-12-01T15:21:00.000-05:002005-12-01T15:21:42.863-05:00

سمكة واحد, سمكتان اثنان, سمكة حمراء, سمكة سماوية

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Yesterday I started really doing some work... I helped deliver 1 truckfull and 1 carfull+ of supplies to the Columbus Open Shelter, currently in exile at a church in downtown Columbus since their center was closed last year. The Open Shelter is a shelter and supply center for the homeless and others. I did this work for an on campus group called ProgressOWU which rallys students on campus to

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Well... Since I've been at college..I had and broke up with a boyfriend,made plenty of friends,pulled an all-nighter,got drunk once,studied alot,smoked,But, when I realized that I was ready to go to college to start a new life, back in the few days when I was freaking out before move-in day... I thought I'm taking on a mission to help and change the world. Since I've been here I haven't joined

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1130965136241592502005-11-02T15:56:00.000-05:002005-11-02T15:58:56.253-05:00

OMG looooolMy suitemates are in their room with the sliding divider shut.. studying. I'm here writing a paper and listening to music and I keep hearing periodic screaming from behind me. I turn the music off and listen to Kristin talking like a devil and Madeline screaming in surprise... with lots of hysterical laughing."I know where you sleep!! hahahaha!"omg I'm gonna die.. rofl

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My first big lack of confidence in a long time...I really feel like shit after completely sucking in tennis today. To think of it, I'm not really good in anything.. I mean, I can't think of anything I'm particularly good at. I don't really feel talented. To make it worse I hang around Nafis, who is bored to tears if he's not competeing and makes learning very frustrating. I really felt like I

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1130445974356710922005-10-27T15:35:00.000-05:002005-10-27T15:46:14.366-05:00

Yesterday I had a meeting with my Arabic teacher, Driss. He's going to put me up to independent study Arabic, which means I'm going to do more work outside class to learn more. It sounds really cool.. This was promted by my excellent midterm grade. I'm really happy about this. ^^I've been thinking alot about the guys I used to play with. I miss them, but I probably wont be doing any video games

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1130333147178793832005-10-26T08:25:00.000-05:002005-10-26T08:25:47.176-05:00

I didn't think it was possible..but since I've been listening to a lot of Abandoned Pools lately..I really miss Key.

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1130272997114291912005-10-25T15:35:00.000-05:002005-10-25T15:43:17.440-05:00

Some pictures from the Hooka bar...

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A few pictures outside the campus center back when then weather was nice and not crap...

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Since I've been at college...18 BirthdayCelebrated in the first floor study room with my roomates and my friends. It was modest, but nice. ^^

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Damn, I am cramming this vocab in and it hurtspaper- warakaradio- musajjalanewspaper- jarydasunglasses- darraaja.. and the list goes on for a long, long time.kosso ommak

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I have a lot of pictures uploaded to photobucket that I need to post.. but i've been too lazy to post them. Also I'm too lazy to hook my computer back up or put my clothes away in my closet. I need to study for my Arabic midterm tomorrow. I need to sleep.wooot.

Natticushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06922142978120332982noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5563222.post-1127872984549782562005-09-27T20:57:00.000-05:002005-09-27T21:03:04.556-05:00

I am not happy with the american media at all. It's a vaccum and so lacking of facts.

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I get no comments, so I do no updates.But, I have a picture with my professor Ali Akbar Mahdi and the author and Time reporter Azadeh Moaveni. :D

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mmm, I'm getting very into some strange World Fusion music.

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Often times I feel like everyone is in a war against chaos, unhappiness, evil... we are good but everything in life.. social instututions... seem like ways to avoid falling into the bad. Goodness against the badness.. yet still tempted.Chaos is the natural enthalpy. I am in a fight to protect my honor and my being from being stripped of me. I guess I am ego.

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Panic Turned into Disaster in Iraq: 965 Dead Published: Thursday, September 01, 2005 zaman.comAfter being battered by bomb attacks every single day since the 2003 US invasion, Iraq was rocked by the news of a new disaster Wednesday.A stampede occurred among a crowd of Shiite pilgrims as they were crossing a bridge in Bagdat (Baghdad) sparked by rumors that a suicide bomber was among them. The

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I love having a social life now. I mean, I really love it. The only odd thing is that... I've befriended and have been assimilated by the international students. Wow. I make better friends with people not native to North America.. across the board.The only thing is that... the one guy that I really want to make friends with seems paranoid of me. It's almost like he is afraid of girls. The same

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I haven't been in college for even a week and already I am so disgusted with single-player console games that I can't even play them. I mean, right now everyone is out getting drunk or sleeping so I'm pretty much by myself since I don't really want to do either... so I decided to break the Dreamcast out. It suddenly dawned on me how many better ways I could be spending my time. mm, I need some

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It's not quite as bad as I expected. Maybe i'm more tolerant than before. Maybe I just like being away from home. I think I really have a good idea on what I want to major in.. i talked to some professors and they got me very interested and excited about the classes here.I think I'm going Environmental Studies & Sociology-Anthropology double major.My class schedule looks like this:[u]MWF[/u]

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I think I'm ready now. As ready as ever I'll be.time to go do something and make a difference, eh?

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I don't want to go.. tomorrow is my last day.Why do I feel like I'm being thrown into something I'm not ready for. God.. damn.. i should still be in high school or something. I don't feel like im old enough.. i dont have experience.. i dont want to leave my family..My mom can't sleep. I want to be with her and tell her I love her and everything.. but i'm afraid that i'll start to cry.カゼ- // * -

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Wow. It has been awhile. I feel afraid to read all my bitching from before.So, on Wednesday I move into my college dorm. I don't really know what I'll be able to do there, but I heard a vicious rumor that they block games. Actually, my friend Chris and I found this out last year when we tried to play Starcraft together and he kept lagging out. It will be a change, but it's only a game. I'm only

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Hello 

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Sometimes talking to Matthew, dealing with Matthew is worse than pulling teeth. As much as that boy used to be intelligent and used to know and understand (he was a natural), he now can't communicate or use common sense worth a shit. It's frustrating. Pardon the language. I'm quite riled up, almost in the mood for fighting. Alot of it stems from pure frustration with Matthew, with my brother,

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Today has been quite stressful, and will continue to be. I only have one short minute to type this, so I shall hurry. I'm afraid I'm going to flunk many a test today. My pre-calc teacher is getting quite annoyed with me and this recent trend of not doing well. It wouldn't be so bad if the teachers didnt cram everything into the end of the year and then get so tired themselves that they can't

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Man, I have a headache... this sucks..

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I had a post from last night saved as a draft, but it's so stupid and depressing I don't think I want to post it. I don't want to fill this thing up with whining and complaining "I can't help mysef" just as I get back into it. That stuff's stupid to think, anyway. So, last night was a good night. I spent time with Angie. Angie and I have been off-and-on friends since I was in 7th grade. We went

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"This party is old and uninviting... Participants all in black and white..." -Incubus "here in my room" Sometimes I wish my life seemed a little less dramatic. It's not that I have any particuarly tramatic problems... (I think) but it's that they always seem so overplayed and dramatic. Is this my fault, since I'm the one perceiving it? Yes, that must be it. Maybe I shouldn't look at everything

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It's been awhile. Matthew and I broke up, So I wasn't sure about what to do with the blog for a long time. It was hosted on a shared subdomain. Since then, the server has moved and I don't really know what's going on. But, to kill two birds with one stone I moved this to Blogspot. natticus.blogspot.com to be exact. Thanks Blogger, you really are the bomb. I just read Matthew's blog at

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Utopia Alternate Login God, I love swirve.

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OMFG!! UTOPIA & EARTH: 2025

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http://u1.swirve.com/enter.cgi

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www.ifiction.org Having links to text games is fun.

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af

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http://www.wurb.com/if/index Just for my pleasure The school is running amok with it's own version of a cyber-nazi-gestapo. It wont be long before they take down Blogger, i bet i bet. By "take down" i mean "block." But anyway, as long as i can use the above link to play text adventures from the IF archive, i'll be fine... How can they complain about playing a short story online? As long as it's

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I am in love with the late Albert Camus since I've begun reading L' Etranger a few weeks ago. Now that I'm into it, it gives me such an intense rush that I can't concentrate on reading anymore... I love the character he's made... How he's given this life he didn't ask for or understand... He is indifferent to everything, he doesn't feel the things around him.. Everything that the character does

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a student... of philosopy? I am, or seem to be, developing an unquenchable thirst for a look into the explinations for the world. I'm sitting here, blogging. I am drinking the now ice cold tea that I forgot about earlier while it sat beside me and my intensive reading. My writing is being interrupted, I must pay attention to the persons that command my attention. Slight grumbling.

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I honestly thought that I had posted something after my return from France. In any case, I will get the photos up soon and comment on them and what not... as soon as I get them organized and have time to upload them. With that said... The exchange was absolutely wonderful. I have a more distant perspective of the events happening around me and a rekindle in desire. Desire for knowledge, maturity,

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I didn't sleep well last night. i had some STRANGE dreams.. and then I was woken up like 4 times in the middle of the night.. It hasn't quite sunken it yet, but I know that i'm going to miss everyone.

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In 13 hours I will be gathering for my trip to France. I should get some uber sleep.

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I'm very, very tired...

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I've got a new digital camera today, so I should start taking photos and MPEGs shortly I'm very pissed that my brother smashed the pumpkins that Alex and I made...

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I think it's pretty nifty that my last two posts where almost exactly 12 hours apart. I think that I would really like to go home and play Animal Crossing. I would really like to refurnish my house, as I think it is getting very dull. I kind of miss my Green set. Coelicanth rocks! I've felt guilty recently.. like I'm slacking off on my work, even though I know i'm working hard as a mofo on it.

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I'm at school. we're preparing to leave.

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Oh... oh my.. Currently i have been on one of my studying binges. is this healthy right now? i'm only a junior, oh my. a studying binge is where i will come home (sometimes skip an afterschool activity) and go straight to my room and work on schoolwork or study without ever speaking a word to my parents or sibling or seeing any of my pets the entire day (since I don't see them in the morning

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Alex was here this last week... it... was unexpectingly wonderful... I don't know what happened.. but, I feel strange... Like I wanted to talk to him more and more now. Maybe thing is just a giddy thing to help me get over the trauma of the parting part of the trips... but... It's given me a bit of a surprisingly new outlook. I'm going to have to start toning down all my lovey-dovey stuff...

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Baaaaaarrgghhh. did that work or can I not remember my HTML? I probably have forgotten. oh well. I'm thinking forums signature code... blah. I hate how the school has everything blocked.. at least everything but hotmail and I don't think they've found Blogger yet. I can't play Utopia!!!

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I have a pretty unsteady feeling right now. I was looking through the forums at XHF, and Alex either has that stupid kind of humor that I often find annoying (Sorry, I was not trained as a child to think that big silly words and Llamas and Moose are funny. I missed out on alot of the mind-rotting Disney comedies... I watched Quantam Leap and B&W Lost in Space, thank you.), or he's kind of whiny

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Oh my God, I hate Corel Photo-Paint. Something about manipulating photos is stupid.

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I wonder if I can ever make topic headings? damn, it's been awhile. I think i'll pick the blog back up.. but I might move it... and I need to find a way to make it a default something... I need to learn some coding, too. but I too many other things to do with my free time, it's not even funny. Ahh... when I get a digital camera for myself.... the world of blogging will be a better place.

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When I grow up, I should be a Geologist or a Jewler... That would be awesome, since my middle name is Garnet. like how the cool adventurers' middle names are "Danger" and the like... Mine's... *dramatic pause* GARNET@!! I have made my life decision. The ultimate tackiness.. Only the best for me. buahahaha. Watching a day full of Queer Eye for the Straight Guy, Osbournes, Trading Spaces, Extreme

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My Problem. Why does Alex pull this crap sometimes? I wonder if he's really snapped down to Earth at all. I have such an urge to just tonguelash him... But I need to learn some patience. I only feel so anxious because I care about him and I know he wont tell me until he thinks I'm "ready." That irks me to no end. That and I hate this problem... I'm not built to handle someone like Alex. He wants

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I smell entirely of oil lantern. My mouth tastes like oil lantern. I can't get the smell out of my nose no matter what I try. But, you know.. it's not too bad. I don't want to complain. I went on a tour that was 3 hours/ 3 miles with only lanterns. Pretty awesome, but quite a sense deprivation.. and a hike. Oh, yes, and this was inside the cave. Right now i'm just chillin'... killin'. Waiting

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Tomorrow i'm leaving for Kentucky to tour Mammoth Caves. Yeah, sounds fun. Not sarcastic. Seriously. It kind of peeves me a bit that I'm going to be gone on Friday, when Alex is going to call. But it only peeves me because he doesn't know that i'm leaving. This advancement was made just a few days ago. So, i'm a bit "meh" because I don't want him to get worried over me and maybe overreact or miss

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Alright. this is awkward. I have a blog. And no clue what to do with it. Damn, I am awesome!

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